almost 2 months

hello :) its April and its almost 2 months being here.
last week i turn 24 officially.
thankful that i'm still here..

i never took pictures of SMK Datu Paduka Mat Salleh Ranau
hmm..~
so far its been okay here..
i'm beginning to get close with the fellow teachers (but only those who are near my table)
our favourite "kedai makan" here is closing next Thursday
for teaching..i have classes every day except for Thursday..
my students are not bad...sometimes there are bad lessons..but that way i'll improve..my lecturer have not come to observe us..

as for touring Ranau..
I only went to Poring Hot Spring
not bathing but jungle trekking
and man it was high up..
planning to go and visit Desa Cattle sometime..
ang Kg Luanti fish massage / foot therapy
I only go out when i need to grab something to eat or buy stuff to cook..

goodbye for now..i'll blog some other time :D

2012

its my first post for 2012

i have not been blogging since last year
i dont know why im so lazy to sign in to my account
im sorry blog that i ditched you

this will be my first post of the year
so far
i have completed my undergraduate studies
i have no more exams
yay to that!!
but i'll have my teaching practice soon
like really-really soon
in Feb 27th i'll be checking in at Ranau

im pretty much ecstatic and nervous at the same time
how i'll live alone
survive alone
and teach alone
in a whole new place
unfamiliar
with basically no one i know

but i need this
i need to learn to stand alone
because i will have to face this at some point in life
right??

i'll take it as a challenge in Life

holidays report

its been a while since i last wrote my last entry

so here's a few updates

about whats happening around me..

firstly,

i am thinking of getting a long bob hair...

pretty much around the shoulder length

hmm..i'm not sure if it really looks nice on me..

but i think i should try a shorter length

since its getting warmer day by day...

and.. my nephew Noel

was bitten by one of our dog...

he got stitches on his upper chest..near his armpit

it all happened so fast..

in a blink of an eye

& the dog was deported to another place...

& apart from that..we thought that my nephew will be traumatized

by the incident..

but nope..na ah~

he is still roaming around the house compound like

nobody's business...

he's not even afraid of the other dogs..

still jumping around making us shout & scream

like we live in some kind of mad house

and i'm actually missing the dog who was deported..

i was wondering if he'll survive out there

haiyaa~

another thing is..these past few weeks

i don't feel healthy..

my head always hurts

and i got a fever yesterday..

still feeling quite chilly as a matter of fact

i think my long hair is trapping all the heat..

making my head ache...

and i checked my exam result just now..

it the same as last semester..

hopefully the next 2 sem i'll be able to get it up a notch a lil bit

cant really believe i'll be in my 4th year next sem..

pretty much the senior now..gotta act like one to..

thank u Lord for such blessing upon me..

so..thats it for now..

i'll think of another post next time..

iamhungrypula...shesshh

10 confessions

10 confessions.

saw this trend in twitter

thot i might give it a try

so here GOES..

#1.

when im mad i keep it to myself.

#2.

in an awkward position, i text friends randomly just so i can hve some1 to talk with.

#3.

i used to think that YouTube's are where ppl see their porn vids..

(i was young & naive)

but are there any in YouTube?? i never checked..

#4.

im afraid of changes..

#5.

i never thot of being a teacher before..

but now im learning towards that day when i do become one..

#6.

i hate being pushed by others..

as in force to do something that i dont want to..

#7.

i cry in the shower.

#8.

i get all teary when it comes to watching sad movie & reading sad books & something that involves cruelty(i typed "discrimination" just now) towards animals..

#9.

i cant go out without preparing meals/something to eat for my family.

always thought that they might be hungry & find out there's no food to eat..

especially my dad..he tends to be furious when hungry..

yea..i know i got issues..

#10.

i hate it when im about to do things & others tells me to do that thing im about to do..

kinda like if im about to wash the dishes just cuz i was feeling hard-working..

& my mum comes yelling for me to do the dishes..

id feel irritated..& lazy all of the sudden..

i dont know why...

so that's my 10 confessions..

u might wanna try it too!!

sleep

pouring rain

its been raining since morning..

kinda regretted washing my hair eventho' its so cold

now i feel my chest is getting uncomfortable

its been 1 month of holidays

i hve 3 months left...

seem like everybody's got a job..

they are going to get money..

uwaa..!!!~ im still broke..still babysitting

and im cracking my head

with things that i can do to earn money..

im seriously thinking of baking and selling cakes..

yerr~~ i hve time meh...??

havent cut my hair yet..

havent even go outside of kinarut..how lame can that be....

haiyooo~

kaamatan has passed..

now waiting for Mark's big day in August..

another addition to our big family..

penat

saya agak exhausted ya~

macm miaga mau patah itu spine

(tanda2 ada sot-sot suda)

cuti sy baru satu minggu..

i wish ada beer inside the refrigerator..cause this is all driving me nuts..

sooner or later...

my daily routine would be..

- wake up

- kasi kemas dapur..masak bubur

- bikin nenen Noel & Abigail -> kasi tinguk dorg kartun

- masak nasi, jemur kain..

- kasi makan dorg Noel, kasi mandi dorg....

- teriak2 & marah2 time kasi pakai baju sbb dorg lompat2 di katil

- masak lunch

- paksa dorg budak-budak tidur...kalau nda pun kasi takut si Bigail supaya tidur..but it never seems to work..haishh..

- mandi / makan / tgk tv sma Noel & Bigail / teriak2 suruh Noel masuk rumah( i know..im ageing fast)

- bikin nenen lagi...

- teriak2 marah si bigail lagi...sbb tida pandai kasitau kalau kencing...stress sendiri sy...

- kasi makan petang...or more likely pujuk dorg supaya makan...dorg kutur time mkan..sy stress lagi....

-kasi mandi petang...tgk tv lagi~

- masak dinner, cuci piring,

- ksi makan tasu & tingau...ngiau..ngiau..woof...woof..nasib ayam sama ikan bukan tanggungjawab sya..kalau nda..mungkin sy beguling2 d kolam suda...

-naik p bilik..online sekejap..mandi..

-sambung online...

-tidur...

boring kan rutin sy..urat leher sy pun tegang ni..hari2 yelling & screaming & being angry...bekerut habis ni dahi...

but there are times that i just smile looking at those naughty kids when they did something funny/sweet/unexpected..

i dont get paid for doing this..but somehow i keep saying to myself that this is something i should do as a part of this loud family of mine..

i'd reckon that in the future - i'd be one annoying mother who nags all the time..